Yesterday I was informed that there is a job being posted back in my hometown that is perfect for me. It's a full-time, permanent position with a stable company.
Why is it that these things always come up when I'm not really in a position to follow through on them? Two years ago when I was in absolute hell in my minimum-wage job I would have loved an opportunity like this!
Two years ago all I wanted was a job that was full-time, permanent, doing what I loved that paid more than minimum wage in my hometown. Why is it that this has to come about now? Why couldn't it have been there when I needed it? Why is it the things I want are never there when I want and need them? This stuff always comes along after the fact.
I hate that! Only when I don't need it anymore does it come along. This seems to be the story of my life. It's not just jobs that this happens with it happens with the men in my life too. I always get what I need from them when I don't need it anymore.
Perhaps if this opportunity had shown up back at the beginning of the year the relationship I had been hoping for might have worked. Of course I'll never know that now but it sure did cross my mind.
I sometimes feel like all my dreams are always just out of my reach. No matter what I can never get there at least not until I don't want them anymore.
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